For those who are still actively checking their deviantArt inboxes and notice this very journal entry, some of you may not even remember who I am (oh wait, I was the person who always drew bad Kaz art...wait, who's Kaz again?)

ANYWAY, I realize it's been three eternities since I've last had any activity whatsoever on here. And some of you may or may not have noticed that I've ended up storing a lot of my stuff from my gallery (though I've left a few viewable still), and you might be wondering, what the heck is this person's deal?

The truth is that I've wanted to start over with a new account and leave this one be - but I don't want to deactivate my account since that'd mean people wondering why I've suddenly vanished and also because I've got too much of a huge favourites collection to ditch like that. Why do I want to start over? A bit of a silly reason, but looking back at my old art in my gallery at the moment is making me cringe over how BAD a lot of my art is. Why I never noticed this before, and why I even submitted it if it was so bad, I have no idea. I guess the more you improve the sharper your perspective becomes and the higher you set your expectations for your art. I mean I understand I'm no way an artist and will never be a true artist, BUT GEEZ A LOT OF THIS ART HORROR SHOULD NOT BE SEEN ON THE INTERNET.

I realize it's part of art to improve, look back at old stuff and be like "OHMYGAWD LOL THIS WAS SO BAD I CANNOT BELIEVE I THOUGHT THIS PIC WAS GOOD LOLOL" but at the moment I don't feel comfortable with my old stuff appearing, especially when searching for, ahem, Big Boss/Kaz porn AND FINDING MY OWN RESULTS OF REALLY REALLY BADLY DRAWN PORN FROM A YEAR AGO. Maybe as time goes by I will learn to look back and laugh and then share the horrors again. Maybe in about 20 years time.

And I also realized I said I wanted to start over but I'm still thinking about whether I should really start a dA account...I mean it's obvious I've been inactive for a long time, and though I am appealed by dA for the fact that it's easy to share art with everyone and it has nice communication, the reality is that I've kind of lost interest of it over the months and, without sounding like a huge brat about it, I'm not so keen on its management (ie. the whole virus issue, which I've learnt to avoid but I'm still very bitter that no effort has been made to protect those who don't KNOW how to avoid these viruses - we know dA places ads and uses the refreshing trick to bring in extra money. Great, it doesn't do me any harm. Except for bringing me the odd virus every now and then - most antivirus scanners may not recognize these new viruses from the ads, so the best way to avoid it for certain is to block ads, but blocking ads means dA gets no revenue...so dA, do you see the logic here? :T I don't know if dA has done anything about this in my absence so I realize I'm not actually in a position to say all this but OH WELL I'VE ALREADY TYPED IT OUT. Also it's bugged me for a while that, while dA has the option to censor your works to 18+ for certain themes, porn [especially if it involves penises] seems to be really frowned upon...so what's the point of the 18+ warning? To censor someone's butt? Frigging stuff gets past daytime TV) ANYWAY, I'm starting to rant a bit so eh, excuse me for that.

(Also the thing is I have other places to post my more recent art - and yes I know that seems like I've merely betrayed dA in favour for these other places, but then again I've always been posting elsewhere such as LJ and uploading my stuff on Photobucket, so in a way dA is like an extra duty to upload my stuff in another place.)

Anyway, so I'll consider starting a new account if I feel interested enough, and I'll obviously update you guys and lead you to this new account if you are still interested. And if you've made it this far to reading this, I'm impressed by your patience. Well done!

Or if you're simply interested to see my latest art and just want to catch up, that's fine too! But I won't post links up here since they do contain R rated art and dA won't like it if I link to porn on public. You can private message me or something if you really want to!

One thing's for sure - don't expect this account to be active anytime soon again.